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Memoirs of a Schizophrenic

A Beautiful Lie
21 February 1977
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I'm a 30-year-old woman that is dealing with day to day life with paranoid-shizoaffectove disorder, DID, and severe PTSD. Yes I've tried to kill my self, yes I've been hospitalized for it and yes I am learning from my mistakes.

Journaling is my saving grace. I love to write, I love my friends that I hold close and I pray that I do not burden your hearts. My writing may never be more than crap, a waste of time, or foolish smut or stupidity, but at least it gave me a positive outlet for whats in my life.

I am engaged to a wonderful man. Smart, sweet, and caring.

"A Beautiful Lie"

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

So beautiful, beautiful...

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